How can imperfection and balanced wellness coexist? From first glance, these phrases seem to be quite contradictory to each other. Imperfection is described in the Oxford dictionary as:
Imperfection: a fault, blemish, or undesirable feature
However, while the first definition shown for balanced is talking about being in good proportion, there's another definition that comes closer to what I would like to focus on here, which is:
Balanced: taking everything into account; fairly judged or presented
To be human and embrace your humanity, means to embrace imperfection. By nature, we are not perfect creatures. We have faults and flaws, some of which are more visible and obvious than others. Some have scars on their skin from accidents or illnesses. Some of us are not the weight or shape we would like to be. Some of us are judged by the color of our hair or the freckles on our skin. Some of us have less visible traumas that leave us emotionally scarred. And the list goes on and on.
Over the years, I have been judged for my natural ginger hair, only to be judged for my unnaturally colorful dyed hair later in life. I judged myself about my weight fluctuations, about not having the perfect model shape, only to also despise the type of attention I received when I achieved that shape and realize how unhealthy it was for me. I have judged myself by the possessions others had and trips they took, and later in life come to not want those possessions or need those trips. I've made myself feel bad for bad grades, for making mistakes I felt i should've been smart enough or strong enough to avoid. I've shamed myself for eating the brownie or pint of ice cream or not exercising enough.
And then I finally had enough. I began to focus on the beauty of being imperfectly balanced, and the freedom and joy it allowed into my daily adventures.
Being imperfectly balanced allows for a wellness mindset and also for the reality that we are humans.
Everything in life is a give and take. Some activities and foods nourish our soul and happiness while others nourish our bodies. The key in life is to understand that everything is a give and a take, and nothing is equally balanced 50/50. The more pressure you put on yourself to strive to an unattainable level of perfection, the less energy you have to enjoy life and not judge yourself for what you love.
If you haven't noticed, the photo above is of a chirashi bowl and a brownie. On this day, I wanted something nourishing and healthy. I was craving sushi. However, I also had some work to accomplish, but more of a desire to curl up with my cat, pajamas, and some Gilmore Girls. So I bought a brownie. The brownie gave me that comfort I needed, and that, combined with the chirashi kept me going and allowed me to fuel through the day and still be happy and encouraged by what I was working on, rather than being mad at myself for the comfort binge I was missing out on.
There are some days where a balanced feeding of my soul and body, does not mean equal. It means one needs more TLC than the other. There are days where I barely move and eat comfort food that reminds me of home. I don't judge myself or lay guilt trips for not running or drinking 15 glasses of water or having a healthy balanced set of meals. And there are days where my body needs the most nourishment and I get a good long run in, I walk nearly everywhere, racking up the steps, and my meals for the day are nutrition blog worthy.
I am imperfect in many beautiful and wonderful ways. I am constantly a work in progress and continue to learn and grow every day. I never want to be done. I love exploring creative ways to be myself through exercise, foods, wardrobe and accessory choices, and the things I say and company I keep. I always want to strive to be in the best health I can be, but not to the point of constant shame and having less energy to live and be present in life.
I have learned to listen to my body and soul and do what is best needed to keep them in balance, especially when one is more off than the other. I want to challenge you all to embrace this concept and notice how it impacts your life.
I'd love to hear how this works for you and the exploration and journey you take. Never hesitate to reach out via comments here, on social media, or direct messages and emails.